Been a Long While

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“I’m Still Here”

~Mandisa~



Where to Begin? Let’s just start with what caused all the changes in My Life…

January 2015, about 9:15 AM, I smoked my last cigarette. (Three Quarters of my Life I smoked, 2 -3 packs a day. Oh, Believe me I wanted to quit for so long, but being Addicted, out of Habit and an Excuse to break from frustration, or a tense situation to smoke… I just could not stop). A couple of Months before and leading up to, I was experiencing what I thought to be a Panic Attacks (Ya know life beating you up with loads of stress, problems, etc and so forth and your body caving under pressure). But it was somewhat different.

I called my Husband, he came home, I announced I needed him to take me to the Emergency Room. We arrived, I went in as he parked. I told the staff I believe I may be having a Heart Attack. They Hooked me up to an EKG, and it was a Blur of Hurry Hurry after that. A Room full of Techs were prepping me for Emergency Surgery. Putting Nitroglycerin under my tongue, IV Line Inserted it was an absolute blur. Heart Specialist on Call came in and said “I need a consent from you in front of all these Techs Witness that you will allow me to save your life”. I said yes, and that’s all I remember until I woke up in ICU.

I startled the Nurse when I woke up. I awoke a lot sooner than expected. I had to wait on the Heart Doctor who performed the Surgery to get answers to any questions I had. The Heart Doc and his demeanor is very to the point. In which to be honest I am Thankful for. He came in and explain to me that he had put x2 stents in the Main Artery going into my heart. He explained that upon arrival to Emergency that my heart had no blood flow going into it and my heart was literally jumping out of my chest. He used the main artery in my Right leg to perform the Surgery, other than opening my chest up.

Then he asked me a Question, “Why are you still here?”. It threw me off, made me literally stop and think (That NCIS Gibbs back of the Head Slap, that kind of moment). My only Response to him was, “God has got my Attention”.

Here I am, 4 Years later. From 10 Heart medications down to 2. Have not smoked since 9:15 AM January 2015. Still making changes to how I eat, my attitude, making new habits. I am Not Perfect. I want to keep it Simple and keep it Real. I still have a long ways to go, but I choose to be Happy and enjoy the way.

Until next time. <waving> Thanks for stopping by. Have a Beautiful day and Shine On!


Yesterday
Had me knocked to the ground
Had me down for the count
My faith a million miles away
And I dropped outta sight
This overcomer, lost her
Will to fight
I know it’s been a while since
Anybody see me smile and
Shame had me thinking it was
Game over
Thought my best days were gone, yeah
Turns out, that I was wrong ’cause
This is my comeback song, yeah
And by the grace of God
I’m still here
Hope is rising, waking up my soul
I’m still here
All my broken, turning beautiful
‘Cause I feel my heartbeat beating
And my lungs breathe breathing
Guess my God’s not done with me yet
I’m still here
All my yesterdays are gone
And the best is yet to come
Now I see
There’s a reason I survived
There’s a story still to write
His grace is working everything
Everything for my good
In a way that, only
He could
I know it’s been a while since
Anybody’s seen me smile and
Shame had me thinking it was
Game over
Thought my best days were gone, yeah
Turns out, that I was wrong ’cause
This is my comeback song
I’m still here (I’m still here)
Hope is rising, waking up my soul
I’m still here (I’m still here)
All my broken, turning beautiful
‘Cause I feel my heart beat beating
And my lungs breathe breathing
Guess my God’s not done with me yet (done with me yet)
I’m still here (I’m still here)
All my yesterdays are gone
And the best is yet to come
He lifted me up (He lifted me up)
Out of the pit
All glory to God
I will sing it again
He lifted me up (yeah)
Out of the pit
All glory to God
And the best is yet to come
The best is yet to come
I’m still here (I’m still here)
Hope is rising, waking up my soul (waking up my soul)
I’m still here (I’m still here)
All my broken, turning beautiful
‘Cause I feel my heart beat beating
And my lungs breathe breathing
Guess my God’s not done with me yet (done with me yet)
‘Cause I’m still here (I’m still here)
All my yesterdays are gone
And the best is yet to come
The best is yet to come
Songwriters: Mandisa Hundley / AJ Pruis / Matthew West
I’m Still Here lyrics © Capitol Christian Music Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.

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