“I’m Still Here”
Where to Begin? Let’s just start with what caused all the changes in My Life…
January 2015, about 9:15 AM, I smoked my last cigarette. (Three Quarters of my Life I smoked, 2 -3 packs a day. Oh, Believe me I wanted to quit for so long, but being Addicted, out of Habit and an Excuse to break from frustration, or a tense situation to smoke… I just could not stop). A couple of Months before and leading up to, I was experiencing what I thought to be a Panic Attacks (Ya know life beating you up with loads of stress, problems, etc and so forth and your body caving under pressure). But it was somewhat different.
I called my Husband, he came home, I announced I needed him to take me to the Emergency Room. We arrived, I went in as he parked. I told the staff I believe I may be having a Heart Attack. They Hooked me up to an EKG, and it was a Blur of Hurry Hurry after that. A Room full of Techs were prepping me for Emergency Surgery. Putting Nitroglycerin under my tongue, IV Line Inserted it was an absolute blur. Heart Specialist on Call came in and said “I need a consent from you in front of all these Techs Witness that you will allow me to save your life”. I said yes, and that’s all I remember until I woke up in ICU.
I startled the Nurse when I woke up. I awoke a lot sooner than expected. I had to wait on the Heart Doctor who performed the Surgery to get answers to any questions I had. The Heart Doc and his demeanor is very to the point. In which to be honest I am Thankful for. He came in and explain to me that he had put x2 stents in the Main Artery going into my heart. He explained that upon arrival to Emergency that my heart had no blood flow going into it and my heart was literally jumping out of my chest. He used the main artery in my Right leg to perform the Surgery, other than opening my chest up.
Then he asked me a Question, “Why are you still here?”. It threw me off, made me literally stop and think (That NCIS Gibbs back of the Head Slap, that kind of moment). My only Response to him was, “God has got my Attention”.
Here I am, 4 Years later. From 10 Heart medications down to 2. Have not smoked since 9:15 AM January 2015. Still making changes to how I eat, my attitude, making new habits. I am Not Perfect. I want to keep it Simple and keep it Real. I still have a long ways to go, but I choose to be Happy and enjoy the way.
Until next time. <waving> Thanks for stopping by. Have a Beautiful day and Shine On!